Sunday, August 10, 2008, 05:32 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Today was a pretty good day. I actually slept well last night so I had enough energy to do a decent workout (910 calories, 5.5 miles!) It's nice having an obedient body:)
Our dog, however, was NOT obedient. She got into the box of scones somehow and ate them ALL. Egads! I think I'll feed her dog treats to the cat, har har.
I finished writing chapter 53 of "I, Construct". It's been a while since I've had time to write since I've been doing a lot of Wiccan studies and sorta goofing off on Second Life too much. But I got my act together and added 5,500 words to my story. the story now has 551 pages and 137,000 words. Kewl.
Thistle got to fly today since the weather was nice. It feels so nice to receive energy from the sun when he flies. I'm glad that he is our companion spirit. He rarely incarnates and yet he is frequently in the background. He is a guide, friend, and loving spirit, but he never commands. Thistle is very unique and I'm glad he is part of our system.
Halo was out briefly. He was worried because some idiots at work said we aren't talented enough to be a case agent and that we "suck". the hell with those people. There have been plenty of times that we've learned a brand-new job from scratch.
We did a prayer ritual to the Goddess. It's amazing how it is that we feel loved when we pray. YHVH never let us feel loved, but the Goddess does. I'm glad for this.
So... It's been a pretty good day :)
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( 3 / 973 )Saturday, August 9, 2008, 09:06 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I got accepted as a full member of a Wiccan group called the Turning Circle. It's not precisely a coven, since they don't demand secrecy and members can leave if they want. But it is totally awesome to be accepted as a real Wiccan. Apparently they have two meetings per month. One has members and guests and one has just members. So now I can attend Wiccan rites twice each month. Yay!
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( 3 / 1002 )Friday, August 8, 2008, 05:23 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I'm very happy to say that as of today I am a Case Agent instead of a lowly Investigator. Well... Investigator's not that lowly and Case Agent isn't that much more lofty, but hey -- It's a real promotion! Yay!
I beat out 121 other people for the job. And in the encouraging words of my boss' boss, "All of the candidates really sucked. You just sucked a little less than all the others, and we had to hire SOMEBODY." Ha ha ha! That's what I call a real vote of confidence.
What the hell. I've been unqualified for every job I've ever held and yet always manged to get pretty good at it really quickly. So I think I'll do pretty well as Case Agent once I figure out what the job entails.
I'm pretty happy about getting the promotion. :)
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( 3 / 1005 )Thursday, August 7, 2008, 06:24 AM
Indigo Incarnates
Man! I've had some real thugs at Pretrial this week. Usually I get people charged with petty misdemeanors (such as trespassing and simple possession) but not this week! Here's the rundown on some of the more interesting cases:
-- Gang Initiation Babette: Some idiot teenage girl decided to try out for a gang. So all she had to do for initiation was murder some businessman and steal his Blackberry. That's all. Nothing major. So, she stabbed some dude a dozen times and stole his Blackberry. No fuss no muss.
-- Super Muslim Junkie Thug: In the peaceful religion of Islam, alcohol is forbidden. Fortunately, shooting heroin, selling heroin, and beating the crap out of your girlfriend is not forbidden in the Q'ran. That's right: the guy had three cases going athe SAME TIME. He actually scored the highest risk assessment he could possibly score given his age and charge. Nice!
-- Cocaine Welfare Mama: For the ultimate in prenatal care, this 40-year-old pregnant woman had been using cocaine every day for 15 years and has five kids and was pregnant with a 6th. Generally, the State has been taking away her children one at a time. But why stop smoking crack just because you're having a baby?! Let the good times roll! Oh, she was 40, but she looked like she was 55.
Of course, those are just the highlights. There have been some real bottom-feeders this week. Egads!
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( 3 / 947 )Monday, August 4, 2008, 09:08 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates
thinking about things. thinking about mother goddess. loves halo. loves indigo. am glad. thinking about angry desert god. don't know why he thinks we're no good. is ok. not following angry desert god. not hurting body. not cutting. angry desert god always said blood pays for sins. mother goddess doesn't ask for blood. only asks for love and give love when we pray. am glad. went to lughnasadh sabbat. saw nice people. druids are nice. not afraid of us.
was thinking about mom. skinny mom. poor skinny mom. has become so sick. sick for a long time. don't want her to be sick, but her body is damaged. can't get better. will have to cross the veil. will miss her. don't want her to go, but she will. am sad to see her in suck bad health. she served angry desert god for too long. angry desert god made her sick because angry desert god is mean. she doesn't love angry desert god anymore. loves the mother goddess now. am glad. goddess loves people.
been thinking that it's easier to think more clearly. was not always this way. was not always able to think fully. many things have changed. have become more person and less creature. have changed a lot. have friends. not as scary. can love friends. can be okay. am feeling real. can think. is good.
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( 2.9 / 985 )Sunday, August 3, 2008, 08:29 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I had a nice time yesterday at the Lughnasadh Sabbat at the Cedar Light Grove. The great thing about Pagan worship services is that they are really festive! Lughnasadh is the celebration of the Sun God and of the first harvest. We got to sing songs, play drums, and the high priest did a rune casting. After the service, we all had some munchies. It was nice.
Wiccan/Druid gods aren't like YHVH. They want love, but they don't demand we grovel or beg. We are loved because we are created in love. We are created to be what we are, not created in sin. That is the truth of the Old Ways. I'm glad that this truth is finally being remembered.
I'm glad that I got to go :)
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( 3 / 1037 )Saturday, August 2, 2008, 03:46 PM
Ashen Incarnates
I look upon YHVH as a pretender. This deity pretends to be a god of love but actually rewards worship with wrath, fear, shame, and disease. YHVH is not a loving deity. YHVH is an angry desert god. I will not serve this deity. I will not bend my knee to a god that throws its faithful to the abattoir.
You think YHVH is a loving god? You are a FOOL if you do. I see how YHVH rewards the faithful: with misery, disease, poverty, and an untimely death. I see how YHVH rewards the wicked: kleptocratic televangelist fake preachers with half a dozen multi-million-dollar mansions; politicians who say "praise god" while picking your pocket; parolees who claim "god lives in my hear" right before they commit their next murder.
But YHVH has rewarded the monster-father beyond a doubt. This evil bastard has always been rewarded by YHVH. He retired at 48 being rich while doing next to nothing to earn it. He brutally abused Indigo/Halo. He is a child molester and sexual psychopath. He is a drinker, smoker, and drug user. He has stolen as well as taken loans an never paid them back. Lies flow from his lips like water from a waterfall.
The father-monster is a liar, deceiver, and betrayer. He is a monster. He is a coward. I long to kick him in the balls. I will make Indigo outlive this monster so that someday I can personally defile his grave. I will dance on his grave. I will spit on his grave. I piss and shit on his grave. I will drive a wooden shaft into the ground as a vampire would have a stake through its chest. May that bastard be anchored to his rotting corpse and scream in the darkness until he has paid threefold for what he has done.
But YHVH, the god who rewards injustice and punishes faith, has always given the father-monster every blessing and every boon. He has escaped prosecution for his crimes. His lies have always been believed. His bad debts have never been enforced. His sins have never been called for accounting. This is because the father monster is the kind of creature YHVH actually LIKES. I can see that. Those who think YHVH is a loving god are fools and delusional.
The father monster escaped punishment because of YHVH's blessing of his evil works. YHVH rejoices in the suffering of the innocent, the kind, and the righteous. YHVH loves those who smite the helpless and take from those who have nearly nothing.
YHVH is a pretender god. And if Jesus was indeed the son of YHVH, and Jesus was perfect, then it reflects on YHVH that he had his own son tortured and murdered. If he does that to his spirit-child, why do people think any earthly child will be treated better by this cruel and capricious god? They are fools if they do.
I have never served YHVH. I will not give my power to someone who would so obviously and so easily misuse it.
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( 3 / 1046 )Friday, August 1, 2008, 03:38 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I've been visiting mom this weekend. She has been very ill this year and got diagnosed with an incurable lung disease (COPD) and is further aggravated by a genetic defect. the defect sort of explains why she has had lung troubles her whole life. I want to visit her as often as I can because her doctor said she has perhaps 2-3 years remaining. I don't think she really has that long. She has lost a lot of weight in just 45 days since I saw her last. I worry that she might have much time left. I love mom very much. I don't want her to die soon. I wish there was something I could do, but there isn't.
She's been a whole lot happier since she stopped drinking. She cut her smoking down to a few cigarettes per day. She has chucked a religion that brought her grief and shame and embraced a faith that values life and love. It's like she hare really begun to live. Before she stopped drinking, she lived a sort of living death. But now she seems to be really living. This is good.
I wish her health was better. I wish her physical health was as good as her spiritual health. It's sad to see her be so ill. I love her a lot.
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( 3 / 1030 )Thursday, July 31, 2008, 06:54 AM
Indigo Incarnates
I drove my bicycle to work three days this week. I'm thinking that I can realistically do this 2-3 days per week indefinately, but that doing it five days per week would be a bit of a stretch. Basically, on the way there it's about 80% downhill. The trouble is it's 80% uphil on the way back! Lemme tell ya: driving a bike uphill for three miles straight is pretty tough. I'm feeling stiff enough this morning that I just can't do it!
Of course, I'm used to using a treadmill for exercise, so I suppose bicycling uses different muscle groups. Maybe I'll build more stamina over time. The idea of polluting less, honoring the Goddess through concrete actions, and thumbing my nose at Bush / Big Oil has great appeal to me.
I also noticed that SUV owners get really pathological about bicyclists. They tend to thing it's funny to pull up right behind me and honk the horn. They also seem to enjoy passing me at twice the speed limit while giving me less than six inches of clearance. I realy think that people who feel they need to drive 500-HP vehicles that weigh 6,500 pounds should really consider getting therapy for whatever psychological problem their choice of vehicle compensates for.
So... the bike experiment is at least a partial success. huzzah!
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Speaking of experiments... I had a job interview today for a promotion to Case Agent. Basically, if I can get the promotion, it's another $6,000 per year. I also would get to have th (dis)pleasure of surprising the junkie-bums at home (Case Agents do home visits to make sure the bums live where they say they live). Very exciting.
So, 122 people initially applied for the case agent job. As far as I can tell, however, the Powers That Be only liked eight applicants enough to interview. I was one of the eight. Alas, one applicant has a masters degree while another is a gamma shift supervisor at one of the jails. So I feel a little outgunned. On the bright side, I have been an Investigator for 2.5 years, so I sort of know part of the Case Agent job already. I also interview reasonably well and express myself in writing VERY well.
There was an essay section. Heh heh. I think I did extremely well on that part.
So... given that glaciers move faster than government, I figure I'll know if I got the promotion sometime before Yule, har har. Wish me luck!!
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( 2.9 / 1122 )Monday, July 28, 2008, 05:38 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I'm sure I'm not the only one to blog about this, but my patience has worn down to the point that I just have to vent. Here's what I am feeling: Vista is about as fun as an ingrown toenail.
I have a new laptop that I bought earlier this year. It's got a 2.0 GHz DuoCore processor, 2.0 Gb RAM, and a hugh hard drive. So why does it run about the same speed as my old machine that had only 512 Mb RAM and had a Celeron 900 MHz processor? Why? Because the old computer had WinXP and the new one has Vista.
Vista takes about 5 minutes to reboot when something goes wrong -- and "something" is basically "all the time".
When I have multiple instances of Explorer open, it seems like one of the windows won't close. So I end up using task manager to manually terminate the application.
A process called DNS Host crashes all the time. When that process bites the dust, it disables my wireless internet card.
It's not very backward compatible. My favorite video game of all time, Sacred, won't run on it. Real Player *barely* runs on it. Rhapsody *barely* runs on it.
Why does it have to black out the screen, make a bloop noise, refresh and then the screen in grey scalem, just to ask "Are you sure you want to [whtever it is I want to do]?" Then once I hit yes or no, it bloops again, the screen goes black, and then the screen refreshes in color. this takes almost 10 seconds. It's really, really annoying!
Why does the comvista take nearly as long to shur down as it does to start up?
Why does Vista take nearly as long to recover from hibernation as it does just to do a cold restart?
Why does Sleep mode take as long to come out of as Hibernation mode did in Windows XP?
I think my next laptop is going to run Mac OS.
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