Sux Flags 
Sunday, June 29, 2008, 11:52 AM - Dumb Happenings
Indigo Incarnates

Jeff and I always get season passes for Six Flags each year, but I think this is the last year for doing so. the amusement park seems to have been in a three-year-long decline and yesterday's misadventure was the last straw.

I like roller coasters a lot (as does Willow) so we were really looking forward to going on some cool rides. Alas, it was not to be. Jeff and I arrived there only to find that seven of the major roller coasters were not in operation (maintenance problems, anyone?) The park was packed solid, too, which means that there were very long lines for what few rides were working. Part of the water park was closed as well, which, again, meant extremely long lines for the attractions that remained functional. The administration also raised prices on EVERYTHING. It now cost $15 just to park (er... kinda defeats the purpose of a season pass, doesn't it!) A soda was $4, a snowball was $4.50, and a scoop of Dots ice cream was $5. ::sigh:: So, we certainly didn't eat of drink anything there, despite the fact that it was 95 degrees that day.

Well, we finally got to go on ONE ride. Guess what happened? That ride decided to break down while we were riding it! So we were trapped in the restraints for half an hour. Lemme tell ya something about changeling physiology: we DON'T like being involuntarily confined -- not at all. The discomfort quickly grew from "annoyance" to something close to "panic" over that half-hour period. It didn't even have to be half an hour, if it was not for the fact that the ride attendant had to call for maintenance THREE TIMES before anyone responded.

So... did anyone from management apologize? Nope. Did we get any coupons or any other token for our inconvenience? Nope. Apparently having a bunch of broken rides has become "business as usual" at Six Flags. We left after that. It was a real waste of a day. It cost us time, money, and gasoline and we got ZERO amusement from an amusement park that is apparently falling apart.

Next year, we're doing Hersey Park!


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Road Trip MeMe 
Saturday, June 28, 2008, 08:07 AM
Indigo Incarnates

Doris (Java) tagged me for a MeMe since I'll be taking a really, REALLY long road trip next Wednesday. the great thing, is that the trip is so I can visit her and her wonderful family. Yay! So... here's the bits and pieces of this MeMe:

-- Pick five CDs for the trip.

-- Pick three essential items.

-- Pick one outrageous wardrobe item (something that will make you stand out at a party; you must own this item already).

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My Five CDs

-- Caribbean Blue (Enya)

-- Cumulous Mood Twang (Flowchart)

-- Absolutely Live (The Doors)

-- Lord of the Dance (Michael Flatley)

-- Oro (Moira)

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My Three Essential Items

-- TabletPC

-- Cell Phone

-- Ritual Tools

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My Outrageous Wardrobe Item

-- My Wiccan ceremonial robe. It's blue hooded robe and has Celtic knotwork all over it. I purchased it last week and I'm hoping it ships in time for my road trip next week.

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Tagees:

-- Dewey (my partner)

-- Joan

-- Pink (since she travels all over the place!)



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Only Tired Now 
Thursday, June 26, 2008, 06:47 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates

was okay today. not haunted. just tired. really tired. wish to sleep. can't sleep during the day. just tired. am ok. not in danger. am okay. will be okay. am okay. just tired.

indigo incarnated until 3:30pm. lost energy then. halo helps. can make body work until he has energy to come back. halo helps. am good.

bright outside. like night better. sun is too bright. indigo bought sunglasses for halo. helps. can see when not blinded by sunlight.

am home now. am safe. is okay. can rest. will be okay. no more duties to do today. can rest. will be okay. safe for indigo to come back. will be okay when he has energy. will be okay.


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Couldn't Speak 
Wednesday, June 25, 2008, 09:18 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates

was at counselor. couldn't talk to her. wanted to. could not. tried to. could not. she asked: what does "if we don't move, they can't see us" mean? wanted to say.

bad memory. long ago. bad place. bad people. wanted to talk. couldn't make it happen. was mute.

we remember that place. living in fear. hungry all the time. bad place. bad father. bad people. living in fear. hate being afraid. felt like a coward. am not a coward. felt like a coward. hated how it used to be. wanted to never be seen.

didn't like being hit. didn't like being tortured. bad.

remembered. a time. we locked ourselves in the bathroom. was going to be beaten. remembering the fear. lock disassembled bit by bit. taunted. threatened. lock came apart. tried to hold the door shut. body was too small. couldn't keep the door shut.

dragged out onto porch. held down. kicked and punched. kicked and punched. kicked and punched. slapped. taunted. was bad. was afraid. hurt. hurt. hurt. hated being hurt. hated that place. hated being called a coward. hated being hit. hated being kicked.

wanted to not move. wanted to not be seen.

we learned from that. learned to try to not be seen. learned to shut up. learned to be quiet. learned to stay out of the way. learned to try to never need.

learned to live with being afraid.

was called a coward.

am not a coward. am not a coward. am not a coward.

hate myself. am not bad. am not evil. am not bad. am not a coward. hate myself. hate myself.

wanted to talk about this. could not talk. could not make it happen.

a dead horror. don't want it to have power over us.



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The horror... the horror... 
Wednesday, June 25, 2008, 06:14 AM
Indigo Incarnates

I managed to survive a truly hellish day yesterday. I went in to work on about three hours sleep and with a churning stomach. I did hold down breakfast, but it didn't settle well. I had eight cases instead of five because my lazy coworker called out again. (Side note: where the heck does she get all this leave time from?!) Thankfully our useless Training Coordinator saddled me with only one trainee yesterday. But... Wow... Yesterday was really, really tough. I did it, however. Halo helped when I ran out of energy towards the end of the day. But the work got done.

None of the eight defendants had jobs, of course. One was a drug-addicted career criminal who was griping about how he was homeless now as a result of those mean old cops arresting him. Of course, the arrest was concerning a domestic violence charge, where he made the smooth move of beating up his wife who had a job and was paying all the bills. Gee... she kicked him out. Well, better late than never, I suppose.

My stomach feels better today, and I got some sleep. I'm not back to 100% yet, but I'm getting there. I should be just fine by tomorrow. Little things like food poisoning can't keep a changeling down! We're made of sterner stuff, ha ha!

It's only one week until I get to see my friend Doris in South Carolina. It'll be so great! She said her family is excited about meeting me too. I'm also going to Six Flags with my friend Jeff on Saturday, so that should be a lot of fun. I love roller coasters!

Poor Jeff... He likes martial arts so much, but he keeps getting injured doing it. I know what it's like to love a hobby but not excel at it. I wanted to be an artist once (in high school) and I regrettably have no talent in that regard (and that's not false modesty. I really can't paint or draw. Oh well). I used to do martial arts ten years ago. I wasn't good at it to begin with and it became an impossibility after I was injured in a completely unrelated diving accident that left me with just enough of a reduction in balance and dexterity that I couldn't do the moves anymore. Life goes on. It could have been so much worse. I'm not in a wheelchair, so I count myself lucky. Really lucky.

Today is the biweekly staff meeting. What a snooze that thing is. I'll try to stay awake, har har. On the bright side, my raise kicks in on the next payday. Yay!


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upset 
Monday, June 23, 2008, 10:00 PM
halo incarnates

stomach is upset. must have had bad food. stomach churns. uncomfortable.

am tired. body is tired. long drive today.

was good to visit the Cruel Mother. is her nickname. not really cruel. comes from a bad lullaby. likes her nickname. Cruel Mother was glad for visit. glad to do sabbat. glad her weight is up again. Cruel Mother gets too skinnym gets really sick. we worry.

stomach is upset. icky. churning. want it to stop.

sad too. don't want to be seen. don't want to move. want to cut. didn't cut. need to cut. didn't cut. don't like cutting, but need to sometimes.

am tired. sad. frustrated. feel trapped in this body. not afraid of the dark. not feeling well. tired.

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Goofing off :) 
Sunday, June 22, 2008, 01:27 PM
Indigo Incarnates

The great thing about visiting mom in Altoona is having a couple of days of not having to actually DO anything. We usually just watch cheesy sci-fi and then get a nice dinner somewhere. We watched some dreadful SCI-FI channel movie that involved some were-tiger chewing up some redneck town. Yee-haw!

We got a nice breakfast at Kings, and we beat the church crowd there since we arrived at 9:00am. Yay. I was happy to see that mom actually ate most of her breakfast. She has trouble maintaining her weight because she doesn't like to eat. But it's good to see her eating. She's always too thin, but she's not as deathly skinn y as she has been in the past, so that's good.

We went to Chimney Rocks Park to do our Litha Sabbat (for the solstice). I was happy that mom participated. She's been getting more interested in Wicca. We got to the park early enough that the only other people there were two joggers. They gave us the evil eye when we set up the ritual circle, but I didn't pay them any mind.

Oh... and mom LOVED the coffee maker that Doug and I got her for her birthday. Kewl!

It's a pretty nice day so far :)

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This week? Glad it's OVER!!! 
Saturday, June 21, 2008, 03:57 PM
Indigo Incarnates

Well... I was really glad for 4:30pm to roll by yesterday. It signalled the end of one of the toughest work weeks I've had in a while. Not only did my lazy coworker not show up for duty two days out of five, she did only half the amount of cases I did when she WAS there. Oh... And I had to train three employees because the Training Coordinator pretty much has a "hands off" approach to doing new-hire training, har har. So I was pretty exhausted.

On the bright side: I got two people arrested this week. One was a drug dealer and the other was a wife-beater. On the latter, he also had a VOP warrant for attempted murder. So I was happy to see him go away in cuffs.

Last night, however, was pretty nice. Doug and I got to meet Joanne and Ashley for dinner at Cracker Barrel. Finding veggy things to eat there is difficult, but it can be done. Yay! Joanne is the psychic one who can sort of "see" the other alters. I always fin that fascenating (and yet slightly disturbing at the same time!) I picked up a bag of Swedish Fish. Yummie! No trip to Cracker Barrel is complete without Swedish Fish. For those not in the know, Swedish Fish are little chewey candies shaped like fish.

We varied from our routine this morning. Doug found a new cafe to eat breakfast at, but we probably won't go there often. It wa REALLY expensive! But we didn't want to just get up and walk out, since... well... we'd feel kinda dumb, heh heh. Live and learn! At least the pancakes were good.

I did a 5.5 mile workout. I didn't want to do a super-workout, since I'm riving to PA tonight after my Wicca class. It's mom's birthday, so I bought her a new coffee maker. Her old one is so decrepit that it's held together with duct tape! Aaiieeee!!!

I also figured out how to adapt my MP3 player to the ancient car stereo without spending a lot of money. For a whopping $17.99, I bought a tape-to-MP3 adapter. So this little cartridge goes in the tape deck and my MP3 player attaches with a wire and plays through that. Kewl. That will come in handy tonight and come in REALLY handy in 11 days when I visit Doris.

Oh... to Pink, Java (Doris), Foam, and the others who wished me a happy Solstice -- THANKS! :) Bright Blessings!



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Summary 
Thursday, June 19, 2008, 07:16 PM
Thistle Incarnates

Indigo is fatigued but he wanted this entry to be made. I do so.
his workday was psychologically taxing. He was given the task of instructing three recently hired employees while at the same time eing given a full duty load. He has a coworker who was given a lesser duty load and was not required to share the burden of instructing new employees. This gave indigo some measure of frustration.

He has finished half of a wiccan/pagan historical called "drawing down the moon". Indigo would like to have finished the book by now. He has difficulty maintaining focus for long periods of time.

He exercised this body. He worries often of regaining weight. It is a fear that the father-monster instilled in him

I was able to briefly converse with the mother of a friend who crossed the Veil this year. I was able to tell her that her daughter had a shining spirit in this life and that i think often of her.

It has been bright and sunny lately. I have energy. It is good to fly in sunlight. I am glad for this life. I am glad to be a companion spirit.

Blessed be


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Vacation Plans 
Wednesday, June 18, 2008, 08:11 PM - Cool Stuff
Indigo Incarnates

I got approved for some vacation time in early July, so I will get to visit my friend Doris in South Carolina. Yay! Since my non-working lazy coworker was absent two days straight, I got my vacation slip posted before she could (she usually takes that week off). So when she comes in tomorrow and finds the vacation slot taken, I get to say "toooooo baaaaad", hee hee hee! I'd feel bad about it, but I've been picking up her slack for two years straight. Doris is a totally awesome friend. She has REALLY helped Halo stabilize over the past four months too. It'll be really nice seeing her, her husband, and her family.

Work wasn't as bad today as yesterday. I still got stuck with training new employees because the Training Coordinator mostly came around at the beginning of the day and barked out "Here's your trainees. Train them!" Her pay grade is about ten levels higher than mine, but I have no idea what she actually DOES; neither does anyone else. I think the problem she has is that she doesn't actually know what an intake investigator does, therefore she can't train the new recruits. Why she occupies that position, I couldn't say.

I was pleasantly surprised that one of the trainees had a couple questions about Wiccan ethics. So I explained that "sin" doesn't really exist in Wicca, but instead practitioners are to instead avoid harming others. Fundamentalist Christians always cite how sin-free they are while finding legalistic ways to do harm to others. Likewise, there are certain "sins" that don't really hurt anybody. In Wicca, the morality is a bit more clear-cut. If it hurts someone, don't do it; if it doesn't hurt someone, it's okay to do it. Wiccans care about the environment because the Earth is a gift from the God and Goddess and is also infused with Divine energy. Christians view the Earth as something disposable; they think once they finish raping/stripping the Earth, Jesus will miraculously show up and lift all the Christians straight to heaven. Egads. So... the trainee thought that was pretty interesting.

It was pretty cool after work. A storm rolled through Baltimore briefly. Thistle flew threw it and he really liked it. The sky was so full of potential energy. It made my skin tingle as Thistle flew. It was wonderful. Thistle was happy. :)

I'm visiting my mom this weekend. She's interested in Wicca too, so we're going to do a Litha Sabbat (Midsummer Solstice) prayer ritual while I'm visiting. Oh... since PA doesn't charge tax on clothes, I'm going to pick up some new threads as well. Yay!

So... Today was a pretty good day. :)


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