Saturday, December 27, 2008, 07:41 AM
Indigo Incarnates
I'm really happy that I get to visit my friends Doris and Clint for a week. They're sort of quasi-parental entities to me and they're both really, really nice people.
They sure do live far away from me. It's a 606 mile drive. I have to say that it tests the upper limit of my endurance. But I made it last summer so I'm sure I can do it today. I left the house at 6:30 AM in the hopes of arriving by sunset.
Well... I only drive this far for people I really love :)
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( 3.1 / 929 )Friday, December 26, 2008, 09:09 AM
Indigo Incarnates
I got to visit mom yesterday on Christmas and that was pretty nice. We had a nice dinner together. It was nice to see mom in good spirits and generally happy.
Her health is very bad. She's dying from heart failure and lung disease. She's become very frail and thin. But she is eating properly and taking her medicines. She isn't awake a whole lot anymore because her stamina is basically shot. But she made it through dinner, so that was nice.
My useless sister was also visiting. She's a real piece of work. She's anorexic (for the attention, of course) and now let herself get nearly as skinny as mom. She's also a big fan of tanning salons, so she looks like a dried-up piece of beef jerky (but thinks she looks sexy). She doesn't seem to have a problem with adultery either. Her latest thing is dabbling in the Occult. So she had the strange notion that I am some sort of magician/wizard because I am a Wiccan. I had to instruct her about how Wicca is an actual religion and has little to do with Harry Potter, Ghost Hunter, or Buffy. The occult crap she's messing around with can only get her in trouble and won't advance her spiritual path one single bit. Basically, I'm studying Wicca because I am seeking a closer relationship with Deity (that being the Goddess and God, in the case of Wicca). Jenny is involved with the occult in order to enhance her personal power and to be able to command spirits to do her bidding.
I misplaced my cell phone on the way up. I guess I was tired and didn't notice it fall out of my pocket when I stopped for coffee halfway up to visit. I have insurance on the phone, but it's a drag to have to jump through the hoops to file a claim. I guess some junkie-bum will probably earn a few heroin gel caps off pawning my misplaced phone. :(
I missed Doug for Christmas. Our vacations didn't match this year because of a change at my workplace. At least we'll have our cruise together in November 2009.
So, other than the missing phone, the visit was cool. I got to eat dinner with mom. Then mom and I got to talk trash about Jenny after Jenny went home. Then mom and I got some milkshakes at Sheetz. I had a nice time.
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( 3 / 938 )Tuesday, December 23, 2008, 05:10 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Man! I just totally hate cold weather. Maybe I'm a wussn heh heh. The past few days has been really windy and really cold. So that's had the effect of making the house cold all the time even with the heat on. That's because this house is really old and kinda drafty.
My office is really cold too. It's in the basement and it had once been a bomb shelter. So... There is a whole lot of concrete, steel, and visible pipes. What it doesn't have a lot of is heat.
So I've been kinda cold for three days straight :(
Aiiieeee!!!!
On the bright side, I get to visit mom on Christmas since the dreaded Jimmy won't show his face until the 28th. Then I get to visit my friends Doris and Clint (who are heroes to me and also are sort of quasi-parental entities).
I ordered a few "Mystery Science Theater 3000" movies for my visit with Doris and Clint next week. They're big fans of that series too. Gotta love a series that makes fun of bad movies hee hee.
I also survived a week of double-duty at work. I mostly have drug offenders, but the agent that handles domestic violence was on vacation since last Wednesday, so I've been monitoring her cases too. But I kept up with the double workload. Yay!
Tonight is the last choir rehearsal before we have to do it for real. Of course Yule and Christmas have similar imagery. Infant sun god / mother goddess --> infant jesus / mother mary. Actually, I think Christianity could get by with Jesus and Mary and jettisonning the angry desert god YHVH. That's unlikely to happen, heh heh.
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( 3 / 923 )Sunday, December 21, 2008, 08:00 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates
is hard to be alone. indigo-partner is away. am alone here. hard to be alone. sad. have friends, but are far away. am really alone.
sometimes get worried. soon wicca seeker year will be up. then angry desert god can't hurt us. goddess is good. doesn't hurt people on purpose. not like angry desert god. will be glad when seeker year is finished. am glad to feel loved when we pray to the goddess. not afraid of halo. not afraid of dark things. not saying "halo is no good". am glad for that. glad to not be hated. glad wicca goddess loves us.
just feel alone now. no indigo-partner. little dog is gone too. think indigo-partner doesn't understand halo, but tries to understand halo. trying is good. trying is enough. trying is okay. can love doug. just not in same way as indigo can. just can't do that. am different. is ok.
feel sad tonight. am alone. not afraid of the dark. but is cold out. cold is hard. house just never gets warm enough. old house. is tired old house. am sad. too alone. sad to be so alone.
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( 3.1 / 1191 )Saturday, December 20, 2008, 09:55 AM
Indigo Incarnates
The bright side this year is that I got promoted and then was transferred to a different courthouse with free parking. The down side is that I had to re-submit my vacation request and I couldn't get the same week off that Doug has off. So... I won't see Doug for two weeks. Oy! It is good for him to see his mom and his sister. I can never visit his family because his sister is violent and hits people (and has hit me in the past). So I don't go. But now that Doug's sister is very ill with cancer, it's very important for Doug to visit while he still can.
So, that leaves me alone here for a week. Bummer. On the bright side, I got a lot of housekeeping done yesterday and will do some more today. I figure that it will be nice for Doug to come home to a clean house. :)
I also made his Christmas present. He wanted a portable external hard drive for his laptop so he can store all of his TV shows and movies. Given that our finances are pretty tight, I couldn't afford a portable hard drive. But... I did the next best thing. For the low, low price of $39, I bought a hard drive conversion kit that turns an internal hard drive into an external hard drive. I took the 100 Gb SATA drive from my dead computer upstairs and mounted it into the external kit. And after a mere ten minutes of assembly, Doug will now be the happy recipient of a USB 2.0 external HD for his movie-storing pleasure.
I talked to skinny-mom last night and learned that the dreaded Uncle Jimmy changed his plans and now won't visit until Dec-28, which means I can visit mom on Christmas Day. Yay! I had originally planned on visiting on the 27th because I didn't want the risk of being at the same place and same time as Jimmy. If we are ever to meet in person, he would run the risk of being kicked in the groin and punched in the throat (via Ashen). So, since I've actually seen how bad Central Booking is, I don't plan on picking up an assault charge.
Next Saturday I get to visit a really special friend for a week. I call her my "quasi-parental entity" since she's sort of a maternal influence in my life and I love her a whole bunch. She's also the only friend I've ever had who was willing to drive 606 miles to visit me. So I don't mind driving that same distance to visit her. She and her husband are real heroes to me. They adopted two little kids, they have two other natural-born children, and they helped raise two other "strays" who were booted from their homes when they were teenagers because their parents were fundamentalist bigots (the evicted kids are gay, and the fundamentalist parents decided to stop being parents to them).
Tonight I get to attend the Yule Rite over at Cedar Light Grove. That's always fun. Pagan/Wiccan celebrations are always a blast. :)
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( 3 / 1063 )Friday, December 19, 2008, 08:46 AM
Indigo Incarnates
One of the things that irritates the crap out of me is how long I have a cough that persists after I otherwise feel okay. Like, I don't have any cold/flu symptoms except for the coughing part. Man, I'm getting really tired of being woken up every 30-45 minutes or so all night long.
I'm really tired.
I usually get over the main part of a cold/flu in just 1-2 days, but the coughing part just lingers for weeks sometimes. I'd like to get some actual uninterrupted sleep. I'm just so freakin' tired.
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( 3 / 1088 )Tuesday, December 16, 2008, 06:23 AM
Indigo Incarnates
Yes, indeed, it is the time of year for the Grisly Christmas Carols, for the "bah humbugs" amongst us (of which I proudly identify!)
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Rudolph the cyborg reindeer
Had a red prosthetic eye
And when he started shooting
People would fall down and die
All of the other reindeer
Stayed the hell out of his way
When Rudolph would get bad road rage
And make other flying reindeer pay
Then one foggy Christmas Eve
Santa came to slay
"Rudolph with your eye so bright
Let's go cause mayhem tonight!"
Then all the reindeer joined him
Crunching humans under hoof
Kiddies will have to think twice
When they hear the reindeer on the roof!
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You'd better watch out
better not cry
a hockey mask dude
just wants you to die
-- Jason Voorhees's coming town!
He's making his list
and sharpening his knives
All he wants to do
is take a few lives
-- Jason Voorhees's coming to town!
He'll kill you when you're sleeping
and stalk when you're awake
Don't run into that basement
or camp out at Crystal Lake!
So... you'd better watch out
or surely you'll die
they're be another sequel
no need to ask why:
-- Jason Voorhees's coming... to... town!
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( 3 / 1108 )Sunday, December 14, 2008, 08:37 AM
Indigo Incarnates
Well, I should have seen it coming. I haven't had a decent amount of sunlight in three weeks and I've had a lot of emotional stress. The net result is that I've been clobbered by the common cold this weekend.
From the non-human perspective, I have to say that the human body does some really disgusting things sometimes. For example, what is the point of having sticky, viscous fluid come out of one's nose for days at a time? And why does thick, foul-tasting gel form in one,s lungs? It's just so gross. And I can feel every major injury this body ever had.
I got close to zero sleep last night because I kept having to cough. And I was coughing so much that I almost threw up a few times (another unpleasant human-body phenomenon).
If I had my true physical form, this would be a non-issue. Changelings rarely get sick! As it is, I'm stuck with this human body for the foreseeable future. Oh well. What can ya do?
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( 3.1 / 1179 )Thursday, December 11, 2008, 09:32 PM - Cool Stuff
indigo incarnates
It looks like the tale of technological woe is finally at an end! My dreaded Vista computer bit the dust two weeks ago and I had ordered a Dell as a replacement. However, the month of December is a bad time of year to order a computer on the internet. In this case, the computer is delayed indefinately due to "unforseen supply constraints". SI cancelled the order and went over to the dreaded Best Buy (where I shop as an absolute last resort).
There is a new breed of laptop called a "netbook". For a whopping $379, I got a little 10" computer that runs an Intel Celeron and WinXP. It's a neat little machine that weighs just 2 pounds. :)
So... I'm back in business!
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( 3 / 1928 )Tuesday, December 9, 2008, 06:16 AM
Indigo Incarnates
I hate this time of year. I just can't get any sunlight. It's pitch black when I get up. It's charcoal grey when I drive to work. My office is in a windowless dungeon that used to be a bomb shelter. The sun has already set by the time I get off work. I just can't get any sunlight. But changelings need sunlight. We aren't like regular humans who apparently don't notice not getting sunlight for months at a time every winter.
I am so exhausted all the time. I actually wake up a lot more tired than when I go to bed. I can't get much sleep anyway, despite the fact that I'm bereft of energy.
It's so stupid how daylight saving time works in this country. The standard time gets jerked around artificially twice each year for no apparent reason. But the adjustment in winter has the undesirable effect of moving sunset to 4:30pm in the afternoon -- which is how it's possibly for me to have gone a full month without sunlight.
It's just so horrible. I'm just so tired all the time. I need to have sunlight.
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