Tuesday, September 9, 2008, 05:13 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates
feel haunted. am remembering. used to be bad long ago. monster was mean to us. hated being hated. hated being ashamed of. made us hate ourselves. never good enough. hated ourselves too. monster liked to watch us be hurt. monster's second wife hit us. monsster liked to watch. liked watching. liked us getting hurt. called us coward. called us stupid. called us fat. didn't let us eat. hated living in fear. hated having to steal for food. made us feel like garbage. made us feel worthless. monster said we were worthless. liked us to be hurt. liked to watch us be hurt. long ago. gone now. monster is far away. still haunts us. hate being haunted. hate being hated. am not a coward. am not worthless. am not stupid. am not bad. am not defective. monsster was bad. monster lied. hate being lied to. monster was a liar. is far away. good. will be ok. monster is far away. can haaunt us but not hurt us. can only haunt.
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( 3.1 / 1681 )Sunday, September 7, 2008, 03:39 PM
Thistle Incarnates
It was good to fly today. It is good to have energy and sunlight. The sky was clar and blue. The sunlight was pure, warm, life-sustaining. It empowers me. I am glad.
This incarnation is a blessing. I am happy to guide and befriend, to protect and to love. It is what I do. I feel fulfilled when I can do what I am created to do. I am thankful for this life. When I think of God, it is one who transcends gender but is instead fully whole. This Being shines like the sun and gives life. I am glad to have been created. I am at peace with my incarnation. :)
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( 3 / 1101 )Saturday, September 6, 2008, 02:35 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Well, I finally figured out how to create a subdomain on my el cheapo hosting account. So I decided to make a page for Willow that tells of his interests. After all, it's good to know what kinds of things a 3-year-old Alter likes, eh?
So... if you go to http:://indigohalo.com/willow you can see Willow's page :)
---> Thanks for visiting, Foam. I do actually have the "Feedback" box functioning now. YAY!! :)
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( 3 / 1082 )Friday, September 5, 2008, 07:13 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I had an awesome bail review petition today in which I got to recommend that an useless unemployed thug who decided to shoot one of his homies because he got "dissed". So I recommended the defendant get No Bail status and the Judge agreed. Yay! So, the defense attorney said "Well, just because the victim got shot 5 seconds after the defendant said he'd shoot him doesn't mean it was the defendant that shot him!" Ha ha ha ha ha! You've got to be kidding me! Needless to say, the Judge was not impressed.
I get to visit my friend Rho tonight. She's had a rough time this year with her health but she seems to be slowly getting better. She had to get surgery six weeks ago for an intestinal tract infection that was supposed to have been fixed by a previous surgery eight months ago, but it came back. But this time around, her doctors said they got rid of all the diseased/infected tissue. I hope she gets better soon. It's nice hanging out with her to cheer her up a bit.
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( 3 / 998 )Wednesday, September 3, 2008, 07:46 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I did an awesome super-workout today. I biked 44 miles on the NCR trail. the weather was awesome and, since I did my ride in the middle of the week, the trail was practically vacant. I like being able to see a green, unexploited environment and do so without hearing ghetto music blasting or the blare of police/ambulance sirens. No, for the most part the only sounds I heard were those of insects, birds, and the wind. It was nice.
Of course, Thistle got to fly a lot and that made him happy. Apparently it's also a good time of year to see Black-Eyed Susans (a yellow flower with a black center). We saw a whole bunch of those!
So.. 44 miles is equal to 2200 calories burned. How cool is that?
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( 3 / 1057 )Monday, September 1, 2008, 03:37 PM - Dumb Happenings
Indigo Incarnates
So... the scooter idea is out. My backup plan is to get a Honda Rebel 250 motorcycle next year. I already have $500 saved, since I didn't buy the scooter. I have an Add-On CD at my bank that automatically shuffles $75 per paycheck into a CD. So I think this is going to be the plan. A motorcycle would be more effective than a scooter anyway, since it is highway capable and still gets 75 MPG.
I'm still pissed off at Doug's sister's loser-drunk boyfriend, since I wasted all that money on renting a cargo van to get a scooter that he broke and didn't bother telling anyone.
Speaking of backup... I was unable to back up my RealAudio music library. The company switched from RAX to MP3 format and then announced they are shutting down their RAX registration servers. This gave me a whopping 30 days to convert 535 tracks from RAX to MP3. But it turns out that I can't even do that. RealPlayer functions so POORLY under the dreaded Vista that it basically crashes 2-out-of-3 times when burning a disc (which ruins the disc, of course). On the latest crash, it has somehow come to believe that I am no longer the registered owner of my music, despite that the RAX registration server says that I am. :::fuming:::
This has NOT been a good weekend!
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( 2.9 / 1870 )Sunday, August 31, 2008, 11:38 AM - Dumb Happenings
Indigo Incarnates
So... Doug's mom offered to sell me her 50cc scooter for $600 since she doesn't use it -- ever -- and it only has 303 miles on the odometer. So I rented a cargo van to drive up to Erie to pick it up. But... it would have been REALLY NICE if she would have told me that the damned thing doesn't work. What she had told me was that it works perfectly and only needs a new rear reflector. Well, I could handle a rear reflector. But then I get up here and Doug's mom said, "Oh, by the way, Heather's unemployed, redneck, boozer boyfriend drove it around recently and said he had a hard time getting it started. Hard time, it turns out, means the scooter is dead and can't be started by any means. It's broken. I spent a lot of money to rent a cargo van for the weekend so I could pick this scooter up. I also had to burn two days of vacation. This situation just plain sucks. I would have greatly preferred honesty. If she would have said "I have a dead scooter in my garage and I don't know what's wrong with it", I could have said "I'm sorry to hear that" and left it at that" Doug said, "Oh, just transport it to the repair shop in Pasadena". The trouble is I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT. So I have no idea what the repair cost would be -- even if it can be repaired
This weekend is a total bust.</p>
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Edit:
Apparently it seems that Heather's redneck alcoholic boyfirend told Doug's mom that the scooter still worked but now confessed that it has been broken for several weeks. Nice. So the blame is apparently that of a 38-year-old drunk that can't even hold onto a job that involves pushing a broom.
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( 3 / 1622 )Saturday, August 30, 2008, 09:29 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates
am sad. skinny mother wants to die. wants to go to ireland to find sacred place then go away forever. am sad. don't want her to go away. feel sad. don't want her to die.
skinny mother is so sick. so skinny. so frail. so pale. so sick. am sorry to see her so sick. am so sorry to see her fading away. don't want her to die. want her to be well. am sorry. so sorry. tried so hard. said prayers. directed energy. let skinny mom know we loved her. forgive her. is okay. skinny mom has been sad for so long. sick for so long. tired for so long.
knows we prayed for her. was glad. could feel it. said she was glad. tried hard. was glad to do what we could.
godess loves skinny mom. will welcome her when she crosses the veil. will let her have peace. and rest. and regeneration. an love.
am so sad. will miss her so much don't want her to go away. will miss her. am so sad. can know that she must cross soon. can know she has illness that cannot go away. but will miss her. have tried to make her better. can't fix what can't be fixed. am sorry. am sorry. am sorry. tried so hard. am sorry. am sorry. am sorry. tried so hard. so sorry for skinny mom. so sad. am sorry.
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( 3.1 / 1730 )Friday, August 29, 2008, 06:03 PM
Indigo Incarnates
So... I did my first bail reduction petition in court today. the case involved a miserable excuse for a human being -- a welfare mama who beat her 3-year-old son so badly that he suffered a massive subdural hematoma and is now brain-dead and will never recover. So, of course, my recommendation to the court was that the petition be denied and that the defendant remain incarcerated. I had a really detailed report too.
Well, I only got asked ONE question -- just one! Here's how it went:
Judge: "Pretrial, when was the last time the defendant had a bail review?"
Me: "May 9, 2008, you honor."
Judge (to defendant): "Has anything changed since May 9th?"
Defendant: "No, you honor."
Judge: "Petition denied. Next!"
Heh heh. Well, I got what I wanted, but it sure wasn't like Perry Mason or Matlock, that's for sure!
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( 3 / 1085 )Thursday, August 28, 2008, 04:23 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Y'know.... I just never call out sick unless I'm so unwell that I have to be in the hospital, So this week I've been showing the stiff upper lip and going to work even though I don't feel well. I only ever missed one full day of work at my current job and missed only 5 days of work ever!
I'm a workaholic. But if you have to be addicted to something, work isn't the worst choice. After al, what job could be cooler than Pretrial? I get to research arrest warrants on loathesome defendants and then get the defendants re-arrested. Kewl.
I'm pretty tired today. It's hard to sleep when I'm sick. Oh well, It won't last forever.
I get to present my first bail review in court tomorrow. I'm trying to get the petition denied because the defendant is a child abuser who ijured her child so much that the child is now brain-dead. Too bad the defendant can't just be shot.
I am actually starting to feel a bit better. I can tell that Halo has been expending energy to make the body recuperate faster. He's good at that.
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