Friday, July 11, 2008, 09:06 AM - Church Stuff
Indigo Incarnates
I've been on the Wiccan path for five months as of today. That also means I've been a vegetarian and booze-free for five months. My body, mind, and spirit feel better. Too much meat slows down the body, too much alcohol clouds the mind, and praying to an unloving god tortures the spirit. So, my diet is much better and I pray to a deity that loves me back. Things are good!
The amazing thing I've found is that when I pray to the Mother Goddess, I really do feel loved. When I used to pray to YHVH, I always felt like a wretched, unwanted creature. But the Goddess does love. The Goddess is immanent as well as transcendent (ie, she is real unto herself and also has presence in all living things everywhere.) I think the "immanent" part is how it is possible to commune when I pray. It is wonderful to be loved and accepted. It is wonderful to know that I was created as a good entity, not as some filthy wretched "sinner". The choice to do good or evil is mine, and I choose to do good. There is freedom in Wicca to choose to do the right thing. For in this faith, it's not a matter of "sinning" or "not sinning", it's whether you've helped or harmed. I choose to not harm, so that is a good thing. That helps me be in harmony with the Goddess. I am glad.
It's nice to feel loved. Blessed Be.
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( 3 / 1628 )Thursday, July 10, 2008, 03:38 PM - Dumb Happenings
Indigo Incarnates
Well... the past few days have been uneventful, so I actually have time to vent about a certain person that I shall simply refer to as "the lazy coworker". Lemme tell ya: She is a person of morbid curiosity to me since I have never seen a lazier person somehow continuously hang onto a job year after year.
At my workplace, it's a standard workday to process 5-6 cases each day. Basically, the process involves compiling a complete criminal history for the defendant, doing a 6-page standard interrogation, escorting the defendant to the lab for drug testing, and writing the initial case notes for the file. Yeah, it's a long, drawn-out process and that's why 5-6 cases per day is the norm. I also write warrant petitions for non-compliant defendants.
Well, the lazy coworker completely drags her heels all day long. So on a day that I do six cases, she typically does four. On a day that I do five cases, she ends up doing three. On those 7-8 case days, she never does more than five no matter how busy it is at work. I had a ten case day once and she still did only five. She chit-chats with the defendants for long periods of time. Then she chit-chats with co-workers. Then she calls her sister on the phone and talks and talks and talks. Around noon, she starts getting calls from bill collectors and she argues at top volume with the various people with whom she has a past-due balance (she bought a house and I'm guessing she bit off more then she could chew).
She always complains about money, but she does the bare minimum to keep her job. But if you end up each review period in "Needs Improvement" status, you don't get a raise. You have to get at lease a score of "Meets Standards". She, I'm sorry to say, rarely does.
Then there is the problem of her calling our sick all the time for the most trivial of reasons. Her sick leave use always seems to coincide with a very heavy case docket. After working for the State for 10 years, she has only 28 hours of sick leave! I have 288 hours after 2.5 years.
To add insult to injury, she actually BRAGS about being lazy! She has told me repeatedly about her various methods of drawing out the time on case processing so that other people will end up carrying part of her duty load. Yeah. But I'm one of the "other people". Geeez! She's actually proud of having figured out how little is the bare minimum to stay employed. She won't do less than the bare minimum, but she certainly won't do one whit more.
Just to put into perspective, she was just starting her second case today at the exact moment that I was *finishng* my third case. But she and the defendant were just yucking it up in her cubicle. ::sigh::
It just gives me a headache sometimes! That's my venting for today. Egads!!!
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( 3 / 1530 )Tuesday, July 8, 2008, 09:15 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Wow! Today was a tough one. I was physically sore in the aftermath of the 603 mile drive. My workday was hellish because i was tired and achy and the lazy coworker called out sick AGAIN, which meant I had to do extra work.
Over on Java's blog, she writes about summer doldrums. I feel it too. It's always a drag to haveto go back to work after having five days off. ::sigh::
I am so tired and sore. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow after some rest.
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( 3 / 1122 )Monday, July 7, 2008, 09:09 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I am trying to write this before I run out of energy for incarnating the body, i am really, really tired. I drove 603 miles today. Egads!
I wanted to say what nice friends Doris and Clint are. I've never met people that fully accepted all of the members of our system like they have. I had a really nice time for the July 4th holiday.
It was a really nice week. We got to see a big lake that was in a park full of green trees. We saw some skinny bird swallow a huge fish in one gulp. We got to see a plant nursery that had lots of sunflowers. We visited a goat farm that also had some llamas, catfish, chickens, and peacocks. There was a little toy train museum there as well as a playground. Willow got to ride on the swings. It was great.
Willow likes to play, nut he has a hard time incarnating a 185 pound body when he expects it to weigh 40 pounds, It frustrates him. But he really had fun on the swings. :)
We got an odd potato chip dish that had lots of cheese. Yum! Clint and Doris were really nice in making vegetarian stuff for me (et all) to eat. They made veggy burgers and a home made corn & potato soup. Doris made ice cream too!
The July 4th fireworks were great. It was really late at night, which meant Willow was out. He loves fireworks. Clint made sure he didn't fall down a big hill since Willow loses his balance sometimes.
I took Joe, Angel, and Timmy's out for milkshakes last night since it was my last night there for a while (I'm welcome back, but I don't get a lot of vacation time yet from my job, so it will be at least six months before I can return.) They liked the milkshakes a lot. We don't have Sonic fast food in Baltimore, so getting a Sonic shake was a treat for me too!
Halo came out a few times. He really likes Doris, and she understands his darkness and is not afraid. He had to use his lancet once, but it was okay. That gadget is so much safer and less destructive compared to when he used to inflict self-injury with a knife or a pair of scissors.
This morning was the long, long, long drive home. The Capitol Beltway is a singularly awful piece of purgatory. It was just plain awful. But we made it home in one piece. Yay!
It was a really nice week. :)
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( 3 / 1361 )Sunday, July 6, 2008, 05:46 PM - halo's thoughts
halo incarnates
sad to have to leave. doris is dark mom. nice friend. not afraid of halo. will miss doris. gave halo lots of hugs. not afraid of halo. has been good. good to have dark mom. will miss doris and clint, lucy and angel. accepting of halo. not afraid. am glad. good to not be feared. good to be loved. good to be like a person not like a creature. am good. been good. will miss doris-mom. glad for this week. sad to go.
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( 3 / 1077 )Saturday, July 5, 2008, 06:51 PM
Indigo Incarnates
Yesterday and today was realy nice. I'm visiting Doris for a few days and it's been a really great visit.
Clint (Doris's husband) took us out to see the Independence Day fireworks. It was pretty cool. Willow was out for that since it was late at night and I get tired after 9:30 most nights. Willow loves fireworks and had a fun time. We also got to roast marshmallows. Cool! Doris set up the electric ice cream churn and made ice cream for all of us. Yummy!
Today we visited a goat farm and saw goats, llamas, and peacocks. I always like llamas because they are really cute and have HUGE eyes. We also saw some huge catfish that lived in a lake there. We also got to swing on a swing set, which Willow liked a lot. It was a tall swing so it was good for three-year-old that happens to be 5'10".
I got my hair cut for a whopping $11. Cool!
Now we're watching "The Birds". It's such an awesome film! I just love it when the crazy hag in the diner shrieks at Tipping Hendron, "All these problems came when YOU showed up. You're evil! You're eeeeeevilllll!!!" And them somebody cracks the old hag across the jaw to snap her out of it. Egads!
Oh, and Doug is buying his sister's little motor scooter since she apparently is terrified to ride it. But I, on the other hand, actually have a Class M driving license. I think a scooter will be great for in-city use since the gas mileage is about 100 MPG.
Doris made some rice crispy treats. So much for my diet, heh heh! Think has been such a fun mini-vacation. :)
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( 3 / 1002 )Thursday, July 3, 2008, 08:53 PM
am willow. saw a nice lake today. had lots of trees. lake had lots of rocks in it. people had fast boats. saw some birds and some big bugs. one bird ate a really big fish. it must have been hungry. ate it one one big gulp! saw two trees that got put together somehow. they ended up becoming one really big tree. Neat! lake was pretty. lots of pretty clouds too. got to have cheese and crackers. yum!
went to a nursery and got to see sunflowers. got to see big plants that looked kinda like torches. they have a huge tree there. i touched it. tree seemed happy. strong. tall. wide. so present.
nice talking to doris. nice person. doris-mom. likes willow.
rode in a great big truck too. neat!
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( 2.9 / 1273 )Wednesday, July 2, 2008, 10:13 AM
indigo incarnates
I'm visiting my friend Doris for the July 4th holiday and it sure is a long drive there! I don't mind driving since she drove the same distance to see me in May. i am 250 miles into a 589 mile trek. So far so good. I've remained incarnate for the when drive thus far. It's also sunny out so Thistle has been able to fly a lot today. Our endurance is always higher when we have sunlight. It's nice being a changeling!
---- 9.5 hours later...
Ok! I made it here in one piece. Halo did the last hour of the drive. I was able to incarnate again once I got a shower. Yay!
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( 2.9 / 1314 )Tuesday, July 1, 2008, 04:06 PM - Random Thoughts
Indigo Incarnates
In this case, I should write "Attack of the Killer Bs", as in B-movies, har har. I've been watching some of the new Netflix "Instant View" films that got uploaded to their server and -- wow -- did they digitize some real dogs! Fortunately, I'm a big fan of cheesy movies. Looking for some "Killer B's"? Look no further!
Dreamland: A young couple should have had their used car purchase checked out on CarFAX first, since they would have known that the major problem with the vehicle was that it was possessed by Adolph Hitler! Yes indeed, the 2-ton V8 gas guzzler was not powered by Premium Unleaded, but rather the Furhur. So the car tries to run the couple over when they get out to check the oil. Then they get chased into the desert where they run into Creepy Glowing Eye Girl and Creepy Undead Soldier Dude. Why? Who knows? But if your car's radio ever gets stuck playing the Nazi National Anthem, it might be time to junk it before it's too late.
Dark Moon Rising: In the redneck town of Louisville (KY? Not sure, they didn't say), strange things are afoot at the car rental agency. A zombie businessman shuffles into the office and bites some of the customers, turning them into zombies too! Who can save they day? The gay, vegetarian car clerk, of course! Wielding a baseball bat and a belt-fed machine gun, our heroic homosexual teams up with Butch Lesbian Chick (wielding a machete and a shotgun) to rid the town of the walking dead. Oh, the zombies also don't like air freshener or Lysol. And they keep tripping over discarded luggage again and again. When one of the zombies tears apart some dude's rental car, our brave hero declares, "I guess you should have opted for that $4.99/day comprehensive insurance, eh?"
Dead and Deader: A soldier gets bit by a radioactive spider in Cambodia and turns into a half-zombie, while the rest of his unit turns into full-fledged flesh-eating Undead. With his trusty sidekick (the cook, who isn't Undead), they hack and slash their way to gory glory! How does someone become a "half-zombie"? Why was he sorta-spared while his companions became crazed flesh-eaters? And why was there some creepy scientist who thought he could somehow turn zombification into the fountain of youth? Who knows? I always figured that being "a little bit zombie" was like being a "little bit" pregnant, ha ha ha. At the end of the movie, amidst the smoking, reeking carnage, our hero states, "Being dead really makes me appreciate life!" Ha ha ha!
Today wasn't too bad at work either. I got a burglar arrested on an open warrant. I didn't get stuck training trainees. the useless Training Coordinator didn't nag me about anything. My Wiccan ceremonial robe came today and is over at the post office for me to pick up. Yay! Just in time for visiting my friend Doris tomorrow. She has two Wiccan kids, so we'll have something in common already!
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