Sunday, January 11, 2009, 01:03 PM
Ashen Incarnates
You fundamentalists disgust me. You bow down, grovel, and scrape before an angry desert god that hates you. Fools. How can you think YHVH has a scintilla of love in his murderous, oath-breaking heart?
We are to believe that the angry desert god is all-loving and all-powerful. Such a being would know how to forgive. The angry desert god instead says"I will see you tortured for all eternity for making even the smallest errors in moral judgement". That is not love. That is hate.
I am enraged when I consider how YHVH accomplished the torture-murder of Jesus. This was a good man who had love for all. So the angry desert god said "I find it morally satiisfying to take the one I call 'son' and have him betrayed, beaten, whipped, and tortured to death through a grisly, humiliating execution for the 'crime' of telling his followers that it is good to love others. "
What kind of sick, twisted father enjoys seeing his son die by slow torture? That is NOT a loving god. We are horrified when fundamentalist parents drown their childred in bath tubs, but you fundamentalists pray to a god that rejoiced in his own son's execution!
Fools!
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( 3 / 1229 )Friday, January 9, 2009, 09:53 AM - Random Thoughts
I blatantly stole this from Carol's Blog. I tag Tigeryogi and Whim :)
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My 99 Things:
1. Started your own blog. (Actually, I run three parallel blogs on different servers)
2. Slept under the stars. – I’ve done it, but I don’t actually like camping that much.
3. Played in a band. – Sort of, if being in handbell choir for 15 years counts for anything.
4. Visited Hawaii – I’d like to, but I’ll avoid picking up cursed Brady Bunch idols.
5. Watched a meteor shower – I’d like to, but it’s doubtful I ever will, given the light pollution in Baltimore
6. Given more than you can afford to charity. Heck no. I can barely afford to keep the heat on in winter.
7. Been to Disneyland/World – No interest – when they invented the “butt in front of everyone else” pass for the rich visitors, I said the heck with it.
8. Climbed a mountain – Not yet, but I’ve done some hiking on moderately high hills (2,000-3,000’ or so.)
9. Held a praying mantis – Yup. They are very cool.
10. Sang a solo. – In church once. I actually did OK.
11. Bungee jumped. – No interest. I used to go hang gliding before I got fat.
12. Visited Paris. – No interest. Parisians hate Americans and I don’t feel like having the waiters spit in my food and then laugh at me in French.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. – Nope, but I’d like to.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch. – Sort of. Does teaching myself to use FrontPage count? How about Wicca?
15. Adopted a child. – I used to want kids. But I cannot afford them. Also, if I did adopt, then some Christofascist group would probably make a law that would take my kids away from me anyway.
16. Had food poisoning. Twice. It sucked, big time.
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. I’d like to, but we usually go to NYC for Broadway shows.
18. Grown your own vegetables. I’d like to. I’ve grown some flowers before, however.
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France. – I have no interest in setting foot in France. I’d see the Mona Lisa if it was in a museum somewhere else, however.
20. Slept on an overnight train – the closest thing I’ve been to a train is the Light Rail, and it broke down every time I rode on it.
21. Had a pillow fight. Who hasn’t?
22. Hitch hiked – No, but in my younger/dumber years I have picked up hitch hikers.
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill. – Never. I don’t even call out when I am actually ill. I’ve missed six days of work in 18 years.
24. Built a snow fort – Who hasn’t? Hee hee.
25. Held a lamb – No, but I’ve held a little goat once.
26. Gone skinny dipping. – No, I don’t want to cause terror and psychological injury to anyone who might inadvertently see my naked body. (Besides, I don’t look like this body anyway).
27. Run a marathon. – I’d like to. So far it’s just been a few 5km races. I lost – big time.
28. Ridden a gondola in Venice. – I’d like to, but I don’t know if I will ever be able to afford to go.
29. Seen a total eclipse. – I’ve seen a 90% eclipse and it was pretty neat. The sky seemed so deep blue and the sunlight was so thin.
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. Plenty of times, and it never gets old.
31. Hit a home run – Uh… I was the kid that always got picked last. I don’t think I’ve ever even gotten to 2nd base on one of my hits. Usually I strike out.
32. Been on a cruise – Several times, and it’s always awesome!
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person – I’d like to, but there’s no way I’m riding a barrel to the bottom!
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors – I haven’t, but I would like to see Ireland someday.
35. Seen an Amish community. Eh… too low tech for me.
36. Taught yourself a new language. Does Ebonics count? (C’mon, yo! I is ain’goan doon no workin’ when da welfare payz muh billz!)
37.Had enough money to be truly satisfied. Nope. But then, we’ve had Bush for eight years.
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person – That would be awesome to see, if I ever get the chance.
39. Gone rock climbing. – It was very cool.
40. Seen Michaelangelo's David in person. See #38.
41. Sung Karaoke. I’ve never been drunk enough to do it.
42. Seen Old Faithful Geyser erupt. See #38.
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. I bought a meal for a homeless person once. (Amazing for me, since I usually just tell them to get a job.)
44. Visited Africa. Let’s see… It’s mostly Muslim-controlled regions that hate whites, gays, and witches. Run by penny-ante dictatorships. No medical facilities. I think I’ll pass on that one.
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight. It never gets old!
46. Been transported in an ambulance. – Hopefully I’ll never have to be either.
47. Had your portrait painted. – I don’t look like the body, so what would be the point?
48. Gone deep sea fishing – Before I was a vegetarian, I caught a 90 Lb tuna
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person. See #38
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. If they somehow moved it out of France, I’d go.
51. Gone scuba diving. I’d like to. I’ve been snorkeling and that was pretty cool.
52. Kissed in the rain. – Yup.
53. Played in the mud. Nah… I have too much of a cleanliness issue going on.
54. Gone to a drive-in theater. – When I was a kid. It was John Travolta in “Blowout”.
55. Been in a movie. – Nope. But if I could have my choice, it would be cool to be the recurring villain in some cheesy kiddie faux martial arts action series. I have a good menacing laugh!
56. Visited the Great Wall of China – I’d like to if it was a safe place to visit. But I don’t feel like putting myself at risk for imprisonment by way of being Gay, American, and Pagan.
57. Started a business. I am not that good with accounting.
58. Taken a martial arts class. I was taking martial arts before a catastrophic diving accident. Afterwards, I found I lost too much dexterity and coordination to continue.
59. Visited Russia. Er… no.
60. Served at a soup kitchen. Once. That’s pretty amazing, considering that I usually tell the homeless to get jobs.
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies. No, but I certainly have eaten a lot of Girl Scout cookies over the years.
62. Gone whale watching. I’d like to before they become extinct.
63. Gotten flowers for no reason. Doug gave me flowers once. It was nice.
64. Donated blood. That was when I was still a virgin. The Dread Doublecross apparently thinks that ALL gay men have AIDS and thus won’t let any gay man who has had gay sex even once ever donate blood.
65. Gone sky diving – I’d like to. I have been hang gliding and parasailing before (before I got fat).
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp. – I don’t think I could psychologically withstand it.
67. Bounced a cheque. Plenty of times.
68. Flown in a helicopter. No, but I’d like to. I’ve been in a biplane before.
69. Saved a favourite childhood toy. I tried to. The father-monster took everything I ever owned – literally – even my stuffed animals.
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. It wasn’t all that memorable.
71. Eaten Caviar. Yeah, but it didn’t make me feel rich or sophisticated. It just tasted sorta fishy.
72. Pieced a quilt. Nah. I’d like to learn how to knit, however.
73. Stood in Times Square. Plenty of times. It’s not that big a deal.
74. Toured the Everglades. I’d like to. The fan boats look cool.
75. Been fired from a job. No, but I’ve had some close calls.
76. Seen the changing of the guard in London. Eh… not a big priority for me.
77. Broken a bone – No, but the diving accident came pretty damned close to breaking my neck. I think it sorta shoved bones out of the way – a lot. It still hurts sometimes to this day.
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. I used to have a motorcycle before they all cost as much as cars.
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person. I would love to see it.
80. Published a book. It was a flop, but I did get published once.
81. Visited the Vatican. Let’s see… I’m gay and I practice Wicca. Nah…
82. Bought a brand new car. I got Doug a Scion xD last year. It’s ultra-cute.
83. Walked in Jerusalem. I’m averse to getting blown up in a pizza parlor by islamofascists.
84. Had your picture in the newspaper. Nope. I hope I never do either!
85. Read the entire Bible. I have. I think it’s part of why I turned to Wicca. YHVH is a cruel, capricious war god who breaks his word.
86. Visited the White House. – I toured the part they let tourists see. I’ve never seen the Monica Lewinsky suite, however.
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. Er… no. Part of me becoming a vegetarian is the knowledge that buying pre-killed animals to eat is sorta dishonorable. I would eat meat if I was actually a hunter and needed to kill an animal in order to survive.
88. Had chickenpox. It sucked.
89. Saved someone's life. Not that I’m aware of.
90. Sat on a jury. I almost had jury duty a few times.
91. Met someone famous. I am not impressed by fame.
92. Joined a Book Club. I let it lapse, however.
93. Lost a loved one. – Jewel, 2/10/2008.
94. Had a baby – Well… I’m a man…
95. Seen the Alamo in person. – If I was in the neighborhood, maybe. But it’s not high on my priority list.
96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake – Are gays allowed in Utah?
97. Been involved in a law suit. – Yeah, some dude in 1998 tried to say I discriminated him for employment because of his disability. But it was a crock since the person I hired had more experience and was better qualified. I won.
98. Owned a cell phone. I used to sell them too.
99. Been stung by a bee. Yeah, and I’m also allergic. Ugh.
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( 3 / 1458 )Tuesday, January 6, 2009, 12:59 PM
Halo incarnates
Am thinking how body is wrong. Is wrong size. Body is human. Am not human. Am something else. Will never be human. Don't want to be human. Am trapped in human body. Cannot take true form. Is unfair. Hate how the body doesn't work right. Hate feeling clumsy. Hate how we are awkward. Hate how it feels heavy. Lurches. Lumbers. Has no grace. Always am trying to make it work right. But we don't fit well. Am smaller than the human body. Am shorter. Would like body to fit. It doesn't. It won't. Hate feeling mismatched.
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( 3 / 1192 )Monday, January 5, 2009, 06:54 PM
Indigo Incarnates
This was the first day back from vacation. Egads! I had a great big pile of work to do! The supervisor did some of my work while I was away, so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. I ended up running records all freakin' day. It was tedious and tiring, but I did it. On the bright side, none of the junkie-bums got locked up on new charges. None of the cases self-destructed either. My days was tiring.
As a signal of confidence, my supervisor raised my supervision limit from 20 cases to 30. Eventually I may be able to manage up to 60 drug-thugs. Whooo-hoo! ;)
I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. Halo got agitated and kept saying how he didn't feel safe. The racing thoughts kept us up well past midnight. :(
I just hate being poor all the time. Eight years of hyperinflation has really made it hard to make ends meet. Now there's a pay cut for State employees. We need to get a new chair and a new sofa. I need to get some new work clothes. Our heating bill was $435 this month (since BGE doubled the rates in 2008). The property tax went up, as did the price of water. But my pay went down. I just feel like such a loser since I can't get replace some things at the house that are utterly worn out.
I feel like a failure.
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( 2.9 / 933 )Sunday, January 4, 2009, 05:22 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I decided to start a Facebook account since I like chatting. I'm keeping the blogs too, but if you want to look me up on Facebook, I'm listed as "Indigo Halo" with the email address indigohalo-at-live.com.
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( 3 / 1150 )Saturday, January 3, 2009, 08:37 AM
Indigo Incarnates
Alas, vacation is over and I am driving the dreaded ten-hour trek back to baltimore. It's always nice visiting Doris and Clint. They are quasi-family, since if I could have chosen a family, I would have chosen them.
I was so happy about Doris baking a cake for Willow. That was just so nice. :)
It was really fun teaching Joe how to drive. It was fun taking the kiddies out to Sonic for milkshakes. And Willow got to play outside in the park. It was cool seeing the college that Doris will soon attend.
This is such a loving and special family. I'm so glad to be part of it even for just two weeks each year.
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( 3 / 1116 )Thursday, January 1, 2009, 05:56 PM
Indigo Incarnates
It was very exciting doing day three of Joe's driving lessons. We actually went onto a 45 MPH road for a while today. He only hit three curbs and one parking pad. Those pesky pedestrians need to stay off the sidewalk of they don't like Joe's driving! Of course, my own driving is nothing to write home about, so it's sort of a case of the blind leading the blind, heh heh. The bright side is that my car is eight years old and already has plenty of dents. ;)
We also got to play at one of the nearby parks. Willow got to go on the swings. He can't manifest for long periods of time, but he did get some "little kid" activity today. It was sunny too, and that always helps Thistle and me.
I took Joe, Timmy, and Angel out to Waffle House for lunch. That was fun. And it's pretty inexpensive too.
Angel earned the Wrath of Doris (justifiably so) for using my computer without permission and reading my private email. Well... fortunately I don't have a lot of racy email coming in (after all, why would a changeling be interested in human porn? Heh heh.) I think Angel will get over it.
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( 3 / 1136 )Wednesday, December 31, 2008, 11:50 AM
Indigo Incarnates
Well, I don't actually have precognition, but then, neither do the cable TV psychics. But I'll give you *my* 2009 predictions without even charging you $1.99/minute! What a deal!
For 2009, this is what I see happening:
-- The economy will keep deteriorating until we reach Great Depression conditions. Barak Obama will have to institute some kind of "New Deal" legislation that may get the country working again in 2010 or 2011.
-- We'll still be in Iraq for 2009 and possibly even 2010.
-- Obama will betray the gay/lesbian community (as every president has).
-- Ford may restabilize. GM will do another beg-a-thon. Chrysler will either get liquidated or do Chapter 11 reorganization.
-- The Honda Insight-II will be a real hit and will outsell the Prius.
-- Red State fools will suddenly go back to buying guzzler-hulk SUVs since gasoline is cheap again, and these same people will wail/gnash their teeth when gas restabilizes at $3/gallon.
-- The Religious Right will make another attempt at amending the U.S. Constitution to discriminate against gays.
-- The Far Right (and Rush Limbaugh) will demonize Obama if the recession lasts beyond April.
-- Windows-7 will be better than Vista, but won't be as good as WinXP. The life cycle of WinXP will be extended an additional year due to the increased use of inexpensive "netbooks".
-- Ford will still refuse to sell the 62 MPG version of the Focus in the USA. (Yes, Ford does make super-efficient compact cars, but you can only get them in Europe).
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( 3 / 1176 )Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 05:57 PM
Indigo Incarnates
It was very interesting today. I tackled getting Doris and Clint's aging desktop back into a more streamlined condition. It's sort of a hobby of mine, hee hee. So it turns out that Shane and Corey had installed a vast amount of what I call "junkware". What's junkware you ask? Those are video games with no uninstall utility, shareware applications that chug the system, duplicate spyware utilities that might actually be malware apps themselves. I was particularly perturbed that the game "Oblivion" has no uninstall utility but takes up 4.1 Gb of hard drive space. Since Shane and Corey moved out two weeks ago, we can delete their junkware apps.
The long and short of it is that the hard drive has about 20% of the hard drive space has been freed and there are a lot fewer popups popping up. I'm guessing that the computer is not on the original processor since it's got an odd configuration. It has a smokin' hot processor (3.1 GHz) but only has an 80 Gb hard drive and 512 Mb RAM. Weird, eh?
Joe got another driving lesson this morning. His confidence behind the wheel is a lot better than yesterday and he executed a 3-point turn with less difficulty. He's also getting better at judging distances when approaching stop signs. I think he's making good progress.
I also got in some good exercise today. Joe and I did a 2-mile power walk at the nearby state park. It was sunny too, and Thistle and I will take whatever sun we can get, since it's so rare at this time of year.
I'm having a really good time this week, but I miss Doug too. It's a real shame our vacations didn't line up this year. Fortunately, that won't be a problem for next year since I'm turning in my vacation slip next Monday, hee hee.
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( 3 / 1124 )Monday, December 29, 2008, 05:15 PM
Indigo Incarnates
I drove Doris's son Joe over to the MVA so he could get his learner's permit for driving. I'm happy to say he passed! The MVA in South Carolina is no more fast or efficient than in Maryland, I'm sad to say. It took Joe a whopping five minutes to pass the written test but we were there for an hour and a half. But now Joe can legally drive a car as long as there's a licensed driver in the passenger seat. Too cool!
We got lunch at Waffle House afterward. We don't have one near Baltimore, so it's a real treat. And it's cheap too -- $8.40 for two people!
I got to walk around Lander University today with Doris. It was sunny and breezy and warm. Thistle and I sure did need the sunlight. It's good to get sunlight, especially after it being overcast in Baltimore for three weeks straight.
Joe got to drive a little bit this afternoon. He actually did okay. He didn't hit any pedestrians and he didn't drive the car into a ditch. Kewl. He did two three-point turns and was also able to park the car with no problem. Basically, we drove around the neighborhood at about 20 MPH for ten minutes or so. It was pretty cool. :)
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